Tender Mercies

I had the opportunity to go to girls camp this last week. I love girls camp expecially when there are trailers, showers, and clean bathrooms. And of course a great cook. We went to Beaver Mountain this year and the girls stayed in the yurt, (large solid teepee looking thing.)Being in the mountains has always been on of my favorite places to be, but there was a special peace I felt this time, it was quite emotional at times, and so reverant others.
Sometimes my emotions are so raw that even thinking brings back so much hurt. As you all know at girls camp there is a special night at which we have a testimony meeting. I had been thinking about this night for a while and wondered how I would ever get through it. I even asked a couple of the leaders if I really needed to share my testimony this time. But as it began I had this overwelming, and I mean overwelming feeling that I need to share some sacred experiences we have had with Tanner. I remember thinking, Lord if I stand would you please help me. That moment I was on my feet sharing some tender mercies given to our family. As I was sharing, my sweet Kaley began to cry, harder than I had seen in some time, an I realized my testimony was a way for her to release her saddness, she felt safe, peaceful and loved, I needed to give her the gate to open those feelings, how grateful I was that i listened to those promptings. Later Kaley shared her testimony of her last goodbye to her brother, what a tender experience for me. She is so precious to me.

Then on Saturday was the curesearch walk in salt lake. This was the first year for this event, and i wanted to go but knew it would be hard. But with the support on family, we went. I was barely in the park when a dear friend greeted me with a wonderful hug, we cried together and held each other, with her sweet baby girl. So happy she is doing well, and feeling my loss at the same time. Many others greeted us with hugs and tears, as they shared there feelings about Tanner, each was the message of Tanner's kindness and strenght. With many saying they will never forget Tanner, What a tender mercy. Then my friend grabed my arm and took me to the front of the stage area, they were releasing white balloons for the children we had lost this year. I was handed a balloon. With a moment of silence we released our balloon, and she held me as we cried together. I was so grateful to have that experience.
So as you can tell it has been a very busy. emontional week, but I am so grateful for the tender experiences that were given to me. So grateful my Heaven Father, knows just what i need when i need it.
Thank you for your continued prayers for our family.
Love to all
Kristi